Oookaaayyy

Interesting turn of events - to say the least. When I get angry about the job, something is definitely wrong. I never ever get this way because I love my work mates and appreciate the amazing clients who have suffered incredible ailments and have overcome so much trauma in their lives. Unfortunately I have had a human week. A week that has been filled with anger, reflection, and regrets. Regrets? Well as a doctor I could be working at a better paying job for sure, but I know all to well that in the crisis arena I shine.

I came into the building today and was immediately met by our office manager. They were throwing a celebration for me and a few other people in the building for our ideas of beautifying the facility. My idea of a waterfall in the front lobby got the top mention and I was being honored. Not making a note of this, I showed up late to my own celebration! Well better late than never and I showed up to scattered applause as I took the award and said a few words.

Then the other great news: I am getting a raise! This didn't come from my boss - but from his! I am definitely having a bipolar week. The ups and downs are unreal. Maybe I need some Abilify, though I do like the ups!

We had to close our door today at 11:00am - a first. We had already admitted eighteen people and the doctor wasn't capable of seeing any more. This is happening with more regularity. Unfortunately there is a down side to life and I get to see it daily. People get abused, their loved ones die, and many have never been treated.

We as a staff talk about a lot of subjects in a given day. It usually is driven by a comment or a name. One patient I saw today was Jesus. I actually counseled Jesus! Now I remember seeing Jesus when I lived so many years ago in a haunted house so talk about seeing a being of pure white light spread like wildfire around our office. It seems as if I wasn't the only one having a close encounter with the paranormal. Let's face it we are energetic beings. Some of us can let our light shine right through. You see these happy beings at sporting events when fans and players are euphoric, you see it with musicians, you see it with proud parents, and I am sure you too have had joyful moments. With the clients that come to the crisis room, they are far from the light.

How can we wake people up that are stuck in the dark? That is the key to therapy. We all have the positive wired inside of us. Asians are well aware of Yin / Yang. Though while stuck in a rut and angry as I have been in recent days, it can be a challenge to release the attachment to being right, getting revenge, and moving forward. But, it can be done and quickly.

A quick shift workshop is in order. It would take hours to type about it and still you may not get the experience. Stay tuned, this can be of great benefit to everyone.

May you all have great mental health.